We recently lost a dear family friend in the most tragic way. When this happens, how do you grieve? When you begin to question the very fabric of your existence and nothing makes sense anymore, what do you do? Where do you turn for answers? Letting it out helps but it doesn't bring the person back. Are these events supposed to help you grow and find your own wisdom? I write this with a heavy heart but hope that I can find a way through.
Thank you Kai for opening our eyes and hearts to such valuable content. This is definitely not a "one and done" read 💙
Your words carry such profound grief, and I want to honour that first. The loss of someone dear in tragic circumstances doesn’t just break our hearts - it can shatter our entire understanding of how the world works. That questioning you’re experiencing, that sense that nothing makes sense anymore - your psyche is trying to integrate something almost too big to hold.
When we sit with grief this deep, we’re mourning a person and confronting the shadow of our own mortality, our helplessness, the brutal randomness that can upend everything we thought we knew. These are initiations we never asked for.
The wisdom you’re seeking gets forged in the fire of your own experience. Right now, letting yourself feel the full weight of this loss IS the work. Let it move through you without trying to make it make sense.
Your friend’s death doesn’t need to serve a purpose for your pain to be valid and your love to be real. Sometimes the most courageous thing we can do is sit in the not-knowing, in the senselessness, and trust that our capacity to love this deeply is its own kind of wisdom.
Keep writing. Keep feeling. Keep questioning. The way through is through.
We recently lost a dear family friend in the most tragic way. When this happens, how do you grieve? When you begin to question the very fabric of your existence and nothing makes sense anymore, what do you do? Where do you turn for answers? Letting it out helps but it doesn't bring the person back. Are these events supposed to help you grow and find your own wisdom? I write this with a heavy heart but hope that I can find a way through.
Thank you Kai for opening our eyes and hearts to such valuable content. This is definitely not a "one and done" read 💙
Dearest
Nikesh,
Your words carry such profound grief, and I want to honour that first. The loss of someone dear in tragic circumstances doesn’t just break our hearts - it can shatter our entire understanding of how the world works. That questioning you’re experiencing, that sense that nothing makes sense anymore - your psyche is trying to integrate something almost too big to hold.
When we sit with grief this deep, we’re mourning a person and confronting the shadow of our own mortality, our helplessness, the brutal randomness that can upend everything we thought we knew. These are initiations we never asked for.
The wisdom you’re seeking gets forged in the fire of your own experience. Right now, letting yourself feel the full weight of this loss IS the work. Let it move through you without trying to make it make sense.
Your friend’s death doesn’t need to serve a purpose for your pain to be valid and your love to be real. Sometimes the most courageous thing we can do is sit in the not-knowing, in the senselessness, and trust that our capacity to love this deeply is its own kind of wisdom.
Keep writing. Keep feeling. Keep questioning. The way through is through.
With love and deep respect for your journey,
Kai